Marianne Morris | Artist

Living Life in Full Colour

New Abstract Painting: Under the Forest Floor

Abstract painting with metallic copper

“Under the Forest Floor”, 11×15″ Acrylic abstract on Paper. Available.

The past little while I’ve had very little time to paint. It’s also not really been a priority, as life stuff has been deemed more important right now. I had plans for things I wanted to try out, stuff I wanted to learn, and none of it has happened. It is 4 a.m. as I write this, having gotten up because it was pretty obvious by the thoughts swirling around in my head that sleep was just not happening. I hate it when that happens. But on the upside, it is really quiet.

I’ve been trying out a few things to reduce the stress in my life… so far nothing has worked. I was doing ok until the middle of last week, when a ridiculous conversation with my manager left me fuming. It’s not financially possible to just quit my job, but if ever the urge was there to tell someone they can go f**k themselves, it was then. I was angry for the next two days.

Working in a corporate environment is a completely soul-sucking experience. So many rules… I want to take a vacation, but before I am even allowed to submit the request I have to check with everyone and their dog to make sure it’s ok with them. So many minutes allowed away from my desk, account for every second, don’t talk, don’t text, don’t talk on your phone. Follow this workflow. Doesn’t matter that it doesn’t make sense or makes your job more difficult than it needs to be. This is not optional. Do as you are told. F. My. Life.

I keep thinking that there has to be some creative way I can take all the crap I see every day and use it. I started to write a novel at one point… thinly veiled character studies of my coworkers and their impossible tasks. It was too depressing so I abandoned it. I thought about painting my coworkers… but then I’d have a series of portraits of angry people that would only serve to remind me how bad it is for all of us. Not what I want hanging in my house. It will come to me eventually. Or early retirement might come first. I think I might prefer that option.

2 Comments

  1. Marianne, you are such a wonderful talented artist. I know what you are saying about the fact that it’s not an option to quit working. Would it help to pursue a different job, perhaps with less pay, but less stress? That would allow you more time and effort to contribute to your art career. I don’t know exactly what type of work you do, but I’ve worked in high stress jobs and understand completely. All the best and I’m glad you have your art as an outlet.

    • I’ve thought about it… a lot. It’s not the job so much as the environment. I actually like what I do. If there were still small, family-run companies to go to I would consider it, but they seem to be going the way of the dinosaur. Freelance is stressful, but for different reasons. I think I need to cut back my hours a bit, spend more time experiencing the good things life has to offer. I’ll have to see how that goes over at work.

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